I am sitting down on my table again, doing what I do best: Just expressing myself as I like to.

I am not worried about the future nor do I have any regard for the past. I am just here, typing what I feel my thoughts come out to me. I am at the moment of things.

I realize the power of being free from things. To be more precise, being free from the ATTACHMENT to things. I know deep down that I own nothing in life and therefore being attached to anything is just a mere illusion.

I free myself from the bondages that hold me back from living a deeper and more connected life. I choose not to attach myself to the people around me, my goals, those material stuffs, money, reputation, beliefs and opinions. I am here as I should be, completely freeing myself from the bondage.

People might be curious that how could I free myself of relationships with other people. Don’t family, friends and lovers play an important role in one’s life?

Yes they do. But we shouldn’t get attached to them. We have to come to a realisation that everything that we have in life (relationships, material stuffs) are just to enhance our experience of life itself. It is by no means something which we own.  If we attach ourselves to things which we don’t own and can’t control, we only are bound to suffer. It holds not only for relationships but for many other areas in life as well be it a goal, money and material items.

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I am now learning slowly to just detach myself from everything. It might not get the popular vote among the social norm, but that’s exactly what I mean. Getting the popular vote from the social norm means you are attaching yourself to the social norm, believing that what they say is right.

When we learn to detach ourselves from our social norms and live from our hearts, we truly realize the essence of a good human life. We would be able to be fulfilled in a manner that only those who really attempt to live from their hearts could only comprehend.

If we were to live from our hearts, we would not all go for the same things. We would not all want to be millionaires or have big houses/cars. We come into a realisation that all these are transitory. They are impermamant.

We would live life in the moment. We would relax about the future and not spend so much time in it but enjoy more of the present.

When we truly live in the present of life, we understand that the only real essence of a happy and fulfilled life is joy, not achievement.

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I am free from the bondages of my past and future needs.

I allow myself to accept things that come my way.

I refuse to resist those feelings and emotions that I dislike and disapprove of.

I live in the presence of life.

I choose to be in the now, for it is the only reality that there is.

I have just came back from helping out as a volunteer in Padang, Indonesia. Great experience really. Just looking at the devastation that the people there experienced just gives me a better perspective of things and life as a whole.

I realized how transcient life actually is.

Now I am here doing what I feel I really love doing best: Sitting down on my chair in front of my desktop. Nothing actually fulfills me more that just expressing myself in a manner. It is this time where I feel like my life is completely mine. I have no needs to just “structure” myself into concepts of life.

I guess these one week in Padang make me realize that money is but a small thing in life. Seeing these volunteers helping out without any money really make me rethink about how much we place emphasize into making money, believing that it is all so important.

There is nothing much actually for me ramble. Just feel the emptiness of my thoughts. At this time, I lack judgement. I am in the moment of things. I open myself up to possibilities.

The path to where we head is always something for which we would have to exercise our courage. Every step is a step to test us on how much we have learned and how we want to apply them to our lives. Every step makes us more alive as human beings and let us understand ourselves so much better.

Life is indeed a continuous steps in choice making. Our choices determine how we view things and what things that happen to us.

I have find out that this is true and that we never know EXACTLY where we would end up. The heart works in funny ways. You might end up in somewhere which is completely unexpected or somewhere which you never knew existed. The heart is such: it brings you what you really want deep down, only if you trust it.

It is always a test really. It is a test on whether you want to follow what is happening outside of you (those things like what you see, what people tell you etc), or whether you want to trust your own intuition or heart. We are tested daily on our commitment to our heart. Those who listen end up being the ones who really live a great life. Those who don’t end up living life of quiet desperation, constantly being pushed around by the tides of their friendships, family and relationships.

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I have realized that we are all at different stages of spiritual growth. At different points of the path, different things happen to us. We start to realize that everything indeed happens for a reason. There are always lessons to be learned at every single moment. That’s what makes life so interesting.

We never know what would happen or who we will meet that will help guide us and see deeper within ourselves. To see our insecurities, our fears and what we really are deep within us.

The path is filled with people who are willing to help us as we move. It is filled by people who are just there at the right time and the right place for the right reasons. They represent the things in which we have to learn at that time.

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I feel extremely blessed. I feel like I have totally shut myself down from external forces and that my voice within speaks so strong to me. It is this deep feeling where you feel so alive because you realize the divinity within you. The “externalities” seem to be completely unimportant.

I feel at peace with myself whenever I am doing something which is close to my heart. It doesn’t matter what others say, for I know deep down when I do something just for the sake of it and because I love doing it.

My life has been this continuous step of learning and experiences. It is one hell of an experience.

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I feel that I really hold a duty to share with others spiritually and to allow themselves to know themselves better. It is the greatest joy to truly understand ourselves better. I feel I am already equipped with the tools and the experience I need, although part of me thinks that I am so interested to teach because of a deeper desire to learn.

The saying that you learn when you teach definetely holds true.

I am just in the moment. I am free from the confinements of concepts that pull me down. Concepts like being busy, being materialistic and of unnecessary sense of being responsible.

That brings me to a point. Don’t you realize how much we do things because we believe that doing that something actually makes us more responsible?

That is one of the most limiting concepts one could encounter.

I am sitting here on my table, typing randomly and fully. I am irresponsible. I free myself from the good opinions of others. I express myself. I am happy.