I woke up in the morning feeling a deep need to express. It’s this sudden desire to just write which is just hard to understand.

I felt a sense of tiredness everytime I have to spend too much time with people who aren’t true to themselves. It’s like what a high school friend used to say that most of us are wearing masks and we aren’t really showing our true selves.

It sometimes makes me feel so disconnected with myself whenever I mix around with negative people and all. I could feel like their negative energies are just so dis-empowering. I mix around with them for a while and I feel like my energy levels totally reach a new low.

Another kind of person which I really try to avoid now is those who are constantly in a state of object referral.  These kind of people are those people who are constantly looking for things external of them for happiness. They would move around looking for the approval of others or doing things which pleases the external beliefs and values of others.

I just hate  to be judgmental, but it always make me feel tired mixing with these kinds of people.

I went to an open house last Friday. It was my dad’s friend”s.

It was a house worth approximately around RM4million. It just makes me curious that why would they need such a big house to live in. I actually don’t feel impressed at all. I have no idea why in the world would someone spend so much of their lifetime actually acquiring things which are outside of them.

There is a radical shift within me. I feel like I’m a totally changed person.

I feel like I’m living life more and more based upon my beliefs and values. I’m slowly shredding the unwanted things that drive me. In fact, there is a drive that is driven by our society and culture.

Driven by the need to conform. The need to do a certain things, to act in a certain way, to believe in certain ways; that we have become stereotypes.

It’s truly tiring to live such a life. I’m just going to be myself. No more acting like I’m someone else in front of my parent’s friends and relatives.

It’s either they like it or don’t. To hell with them.