Archives for the month of: May, 2009

I am here sitting in front of my computer. Partly reading, partly surfing the internet. I often wonder how lucky am I for the joys of doing these small things.

Exam preparation has been great. Really relaxed. It’s not a norm though. Probably many of us preparing for the exams are just too used to being stressed up before exams. It’s a “norm” thing. Probably if your too relaxed, others may think that you are totally prepared or just overconfident. But I believe that this is just another social expectation thing. The feeling where you can’t be too confident or comfortable in certain things.

I’m grateful for my preparation though. I’m grateful for the way in which I have approached my studies. How I managed to finish studying my whole syllabus, how I managed to spend time doing other things. Just relaxing while preparing for the exams. Not stressed up and wondering how to finish the syllabus. It’s great.

I realise how important is it to be grateful at times. We might look at our studies or our work and think of how many more things we have to do, and then feel so stressed up to complete things; be it our syllabus or our work tasks. It is at that moment when we feel we have so many more things to do that we get stressed.

We don’t look at how much we have already accomplished. How much of the “mountain” we have already climbed. It’s important to be grateful though. To be able to be grateful on how much we have already climbed. How far we have already gone.



As I remember a quote,

“What’s done is finished.”

Second thing done on my list. Didn’t even thought it would be possible to see him when I first set up my list. But, I guess that’s what makes setting goals great; often the universe would conspire with you to achieve it. Had to drive all the way to the Gardens to get to meet him. It was great meeting and listening to him. Managed to get his autograph as well. Haha.

Who is Robin Sharma

Robin Sharma is one of the world’s premier authorities on leadership, self-discovery and personal change. The author of seven books, including the blockbluster The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. Sharma is the CEO of Sharma Leadership International. This is one of his videos for those who are not sure who he is, and would like to learn more.

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I have been struggling to focus on my studies in the past couple of days. I would be sitting in my room and would either fall asleep or just end up doing something else like reading or just  going online. Even if I were to go somewhere else to study, I would end up not focusing. I wonder why this happens, when my exams are a mere month away.

I often have this feeling in the previous years as well. The feeling where all of a sudden there is a lack of motivation to study. It’s often something which comes about just spontaneously.

The big questions:

  • Should I force myself to really study or should I really wait for the motivation to arise ?
  • Would I be doing it although I currently have no heart for what I’m doing ?
  • Would I just force myself to do something, although I have no motivation ?
  • Is it worth forcing myself to study ?

I began exploring this questions that I have within me. Is weird sometimes to have this conflicting questions and beliefs within me at times. At the one hand, I know that it would be important for me to pass my exams. I could free up a lot of time to go do other things. I wouldn’t have to waste my dad’s money to fund my college tuition and exam fees. I wouldn’t need to spend so much time studying in the future.

But…….

I don’t feel like it. I don’t feel like studying at the moment. I feel dead when I’m studying. Read the rest of this entry »

This is the route I’ll be running in 8 weeks. A total distance of 42.195km. Training have been slow. I don’t think I even consider myself having a fitness base.

Honestly, I’m even more worried about the marathon than my exams. Bless me.

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