I’m approaching the final two papers. Exams are next week.

It’s great knowing how far I have come in my studies. It’s almost  three and a half years since I started with my course. Many things learnt from those years. Life have been great. Sending in lessons which helps me as an individual.

I pray and hope that all of those sitting for the exams soon would get the courage to be strong and the confidence they need. Best of luck to everyone.

Note: A short update. Always love posting up short posts. Short but truly from the heart. I will come out with longer posts and insights as soon as my exams are over.

I realise how important is it to be true to myself. To be honest to myself. To really allow myself to want things, to allow myself to be who I am. It is sometimes easy to just to be “fake”, because it’s so much more convenient. When we fake certain things, we protect ourselves from getting hurt; be it a relationship, our dreams, our personalites or our opinions.

I find myself being a fake at times. Being confident when I’m not. Being nice when I do not feel like it. Being happy when I do not feel like it. Being down when I am not. I sometime ask the question; would it be better to be honest and really experience this feelings, or do we just act in a manner and hope that things would change.

I personally know a friend who hides many things from herself. She has this ability to act as if she’s happy when she’s not, and she does it so well that other individuals who do not know her well would think that she’s a very happy person. But, deep down she has a lot of insecurities and many things she is not happy about. It feels weird sometimes when I feel it is so easy to read when she’s faking her happiness.

I find myself doing the same thing at times. Do we all live with that mask ? Do we feel happier when we live with that mask; that facade about what other people think of us ? Or, we rather let others know that we are happy, joyful, contented; when deep down we are not.

We are insecure about ourselves, insecure about the relationships, insecure about the career we are choosing, about the person we are becoming.

I blame it on the “OK culture” we are having. Our culture teaches us that is bad to be sad. It is bad to be unfaithful to our partners. It is bad to be this and that. Perhaps we just care about living a life set about by others.It’s sad at times, but I find it hard to be true to ourselves. We want to have other people think of us as of certain characteristics.

I even have this friend who is in this relationship where she finds no love whatsoever with her partner. But, she just stays in that relationship bacuse of fear. Fear of not being accepted by others and the fear that she would not be “wanted” by others.

Being true to ourselves. Being true to whether we really are happy with our lifes. Being true to as whether we are really putting on a mask around. Being true to whether we are really in love with someone:or for that reason, out of love with someone. Being true to our dreams and desires.

Many people are not lying, they are just not telling the truth.

It is important to realise we are not being true to ourselves at the first place though. As it has been said, “Awareness precedes choice, choice precedes action.” But, it require a lot of guts.

Note: This is a scrambling. I believe in originality when it comes to writing. All the words are just typed without me thinking and drafting.

It was just recently that Malaysia has just reported the first case of swine flu dead. It happened to a 21 year old guy who happened to get it from boarding a plane from the USA.

This brings to a question: How do we deal with this issue ?

I often feel that the way we deal with issue like this is often the wrong method. I feel the media is extremely at fault for this. You look and read the papers and it would be clear that the media paints an extremely scary picture of the entire situation. The fact is that, bad news always sells better than good news. But, it is because of this reason that most people are just fearing the swine flu for illusionary reasons. In my own opinion, I do not believe it’s such a big problem.

This are the following of ways which I feel we should start doing:

1. Disallow Newspapers From Putting Swine Flu News On The Headlines. It is strange how much headlines swine flu has been getting this few days. As I remember, it has been on the front pages for the past week or so. Why should we allow bad news dominate the front pages ?
2. Tell stories of Medical Miracles. There should be more amount of stories about cases or situations where individuals come back from a tough situation or medical diagnosis and managed to survive. This stories serve to inspire mankind to believe that regardless of how tough the situation is, we could fight back and survive. It is so crucial at times like this for mankind to be more hopeful about things.
3. Cut down on reading about bad news of such. It is often the fact that we drown ourselves from worrying that bad things happen to us. I believe that whatever we focus on grows. It we focus upon the disease and fear that it might come upon us, it will undoubtedly come upon us.
4. Stop Talking About It. Just stop talking about it. I just realize how we like to make good table topics with conversation such as this. There is always this individuals which will just start telling me of the number of deaths in this country and that country. Honestly, it irritates me at times.

p.s- I can’t wait for My Sister’s Keeper the Movie