Victor’s Life List

Updating Myself

I have just came back from helping out as a volunteer in Padang, Indonesia. Great experience really. Just looking at the devastation that the people there experienced just gives me a better perspective of things and life as a whole.

I realized how transcient life actually is.

Now I am here doing what I feel I really love doing best: Sitting down on my chair in front of my desktop. Nothing actually fulfills me more that just expressing myself in a manner. It is this time where I feel like my life is completely mine. I have no needs to just “structure” myself into concepts of life.

I guess these one week in Padang make me realize that money is but a small thing in life. Seeing these volunteers helping out without any money really make me rethink about how much we place emphasize into making money, believing that it is all so important.

There is nothing much actually for me ramble. Just feel the emptiness of my thoughts. At this time, I lack judgement. I am in the moment of things. I open myself up to possibilities.

March 11, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Uncategorized | | No Comments Yet

Being In The Path

The path to where we head is always something for which we would have to exercise our courage. Every step is a step to test us on how much we have learned and how we want to apply them to our lives. Every step makes us more alive as human beings and let us understand ourselves so much better.

Life is indeed a continuous steps in choice making. Our choices determine how we view things and what things that happen to us.

I have find out that this is true and that we never know EXACTLY where we would end up. The heart works in funny ways. You might end up in somewhere which is completely unexpected or somewhere which you never knew existed. The heart is such: it brings you what you really want deep down, only if you trust it.

It is always a test really. It is a test on whether you want to follow what is happening outside of you (those things like what you see, what people tell you etc), or whether you want to trust your own intuition or heart. We are tested daily on our commitment to our heart. Those who listen end up being the ones who really live a great life. Those who don’t end up living life of quiet desperation, constantly being pushed around by the tides of their friendships, family and relationships.

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I have realized that we are all at different stages of spiritual growth. At different points of the path, different things happen to us. We start to realize that everything indeed happens for a reason. There are always lessons to be learned at every single moment. That’s what makes life so interesting.

We never know what would happen or who we will meet that will help guide us and see deeper within ourselves. To see our insecurities, our fears and what we really are deep within us.

The path is filled with people who are willing to help us as we move. It is filled by people who are just there at the right time and the right place for the right reasons. They represent the things in which we have to learn at that time.

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I feel extremely blessed. I feel like I have totally shut myself down from external forces and that my voice within speaks so strong to me. It is this deep feeling where you feel so alive because you realize the divinity within you. The “externalities” seem to be completely unimportant.

I feel at peace with myself whenever I am doing something which is close to my heart. It doesn’t matter what others say, for I know deep down when I do something just for the sake of it and because I love doing it.

My life has been this continuous step of learning and experiences. It is one hell of an experience.

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I feel that I really hold a duty to share with others spiritually and to allow themselves to know themselves better. It is the greatest joy to truly understand ourselves better. I feel I am already equipped with the tools and the experience I need, although part of me thinks that I am so interested to teach because of a deeper desire to learn.

The saying that you learn when you teach definetely holds true.

I am just in the moment. I am free from the confinements of concepts that pull me down. Concepts like being busy, being materialistic and of unnecessary sense of being responsible.

That brings me to a point. Don’t you realize how much we do things because we believe that doing that something actually makes us more responsible?

That is one of the most limiting concepts one could encounter.

I am sitting here on my table, typing randomly and fully. I am irresponsible. I free myself from the good opinions of others. I express myself. I am happy.

March 2, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Thoughts | | No Comments Yet

My Life Philosophies “Simplified”

I was having a chat with two friends a few days ago. I was told that I was the most philosophical person in my age group.

We got into the conversation about knowing our own philosophines in life. As much as I love to admit that I am philosophical about things, I also realize for a fact that those people with philosophies in life tend to be happier and achieve more.

If anyone were to read any success story or some great personality, we could establish a trend that having a life philosophy is truly important. If you want to be a truly fulfilled person, I believe that having one is really important.

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This is what I truly believe. Things that really resonate with my heart.

  1. When you trust in yourself, you trust in the wisdom that created you.
  2. I would rather do nothing and be happy, then do something I know I won’t love.
  3. The only way to have a life is to commit to it like crazy.
  4. Have fun in life. You only have one.
  5. Take each day as it is. You only own moments. You don’t own the future.
  6. Do what resonates with your heart.
  7. Reflect. Spend time thinking what’s truly important to you.
  8. Learn from people and books. Speak to interesting people.
  9. Love people, use money.
  10. Don’ spend time thinking about what others think of you. It doesn’t really matter.
  11. You don’t own anything, so don’t spend too much time protecting them.
  12. Be of service to others.
  13. If something can be solved, solve it. If something can’t be solved, let it go.

February 28, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Happiness, Mindset | | No Comments Yet

Attracting Abundance

I have been slowly getting what the mindset of abundance truly means now. It’s funny that I feel that understanding this concept of abundance feels even better than making money or closing a sale.

I really understand what it means deep down that you don’t attract what you want but you attract what you are. If you are someone that truly believe in the wholeness of life and of every moment, then you are said to be in a state of abundance. In fact, I even titled this blog topic wrongly (on purpose, of course) to highlight this. You can’t actually attract abundance. YOU ALREADY ARE ABUNDANT. How can you attract something which you already have? It’s only an illusion that you are not.

We have to recognize that every single moment is as perfect as it should be. We have no lack whatsoever. We do not lack anything. We are abundant as and where we are.

If we fail to recognize the fact that we are abundant, we would be constantly finding for things. That “finding” for things represents a state of lack. We do not need more money. We do not need a better car. We do not need a better job. We do not need someone in our lives to make it whole. We are already perfect and full in the moment.

We just have to acknowledge them.

Personal Experience

It’s funny to say that there always seem to be something which guides me to learn something as and when I need it. It’s this feeling that whenever I need to learn something, some situation or event would pop out which allows me to learn something. After that, there would be an epiphany.

I actually love that feeling where you know that we learn constantly from things which happen.

This has also happen in the field of my work. Whenever I feel as if I’m in a state of lack or wanting something to happen, I often feel as if my work would get tougher or no one would call me. Whenever I am in a state of abundance and fullness, I find myself receiving more phone calls and that I meet the right people at the right time.

It is this strange and unexplainable thing but it brings to me to a real concrete belief that we really do create our world. Our thoughts create the world we live in.

I would try to explain some situations about lack and abundance. After that, I will explain how to put ourselves constantly in a state of abundance.

The Feeling Of Lack

The feeling of lack is this feeling that we need something better and more now. Most of us have no idea that this becomes the driving force of many people’s lives. The feeling where we need something more. We might use different “instruments” to feel whole and better about ourselves. It might be a person or something material. That’s why our society is so ingrained in this culture of more is better, because we believe that we need more and more to feel whole.

We are all so hungry for this feeling of wholeness within ourselves that we use such “instruments” to feel better. That’s the reason why people are so ingrained in making relationship, making more money, buying more things and so on. Almost all their actions are based upon a state of lack, because of their inability to find for the wholeness in the present.

The Feeling Of Abundance

The feeling of abundance is one of the greatest feeling someone could have in their lifetime. I can rightfully say that I am in the state of abundance as I am typing this. I write without a plan and the ideas just flow out easily with effortless ease. I have no plans on how to write. I have no need for it to please anyone. I just type it out based upon what I first have in mind. So easy. It’s like I am not even here as I type.

This feeling of abundance is what all we are finding for deep down. We just fail to recognize that this is what we actually need.

It is a feeling that you know you do not need more. It is a deep knowing that your life is already full. It is this feeling where you know you do not have to worry about anything whatsoever because everything would turn out perfectly. You are completely here in the present and you do not need anything because you are already whole.

This is a state of what I call self-referral, where you do not look for things outside of you to feel better. You do need a nice word or a praise to feel whole. You just feel good because you know you are created from a substance that feels whole and good. From something which is just abundance.

You come to a realization that you are just completely happy and fulfilled, regardless of what happens. You know that you create the reality and the reality that you choose to accept is the reality which you would experience.

You are just in the moment whatever you are doing. You do not think about the past or the future. Very often, the person who looks in the past or the future is in a state of lack. The individual feels that this moment isn’t comfortable and tries to look to the past or the future to try to make the present better.

That is why I feel there is a real spiritual approach to goals. It doesn’t matter what goals you set, but the real essence of a good goal setting is that you feel good in the process. That is the key to a good goal.

So many times I seen people setting goals which doesn’t feel good to them. They set something and fail to follow through and blame themselves completely. They fail to see that deep down, they just don’t want to achieve them. The key to a real fun-filled life is to be essentially in the state of joy, every moment.

Steps To BE Abundant

  1. Learn to let go. The key to achieving a worthy goal is to let go of us trying to force outcomes and just go with the flow of things. This definitely go against what we are taught. So many times I read books and hear from people and they say we have to work hard or have to do things we don’t like to achieve something. I just choose to disregard such advice. The key to abundance is to know that we do things with effortless ease and we don’t force outcomes. Forcing outcomes states that you are not sure about what you are doing. It’s funny that I seen it in my working world, in relationships and other areas of life. Letting go shows a confidence in the outcome.
  2. Meditation. I know that I always stress this but this is because I have a real clear reason for so. Meditation lets us understand our thought process. Understanding our thought process allows us to really see how we create things and how events happen. Besides, meditation also is a tool to let go from fighting the current. So many times I have seen people doing so much to try and fight the current of things, without realizing that this actually ends up against them. Meditation allows us to truly let go of that desire to control things.
  3. Gratitude. The practice of gratitude taps into the fullness of life. If we were to really meditate and check our thoughts, we would come to a realization that we often do things in a state of lack. We do things thinking that we have to do them or with the feeling that we need to achieve something to feel whole. Be grateful, for it brings about a state of fullness and fulfillment.
  4. Understand that abundance is truly a mindset. Abundance is not about achievement or getting something. It’s about just being in the moment. Just feeling the fullness of the moment. Is not something you go and “get”, but something you be.
  5. Study abundance. If you want to be good at anything whatsoever, study it. Study from those great teachers on how they discover abundance and what they really mean by that. It is truly a lifetime study of the great teachers that make us understand them better.
  6. Realize that abundance and fulfillment is truly not dependent upon circumstances. Circumstances refer to things that happen outside of us. It is those things like a praise or a promotion or other things which are out of our control. Abundance is an inner job. It is this feeling of wholeness and certainty that things would just unfold.
  7. I would like to end with a quote which I have been telling myself all the time. It is by John Demartini: “When the voice and the vision on the inside is more profound than the opinions on the outside, then you begin to master your life and do something magnificent and extraordinary.”

End Notes

I realize that I have been attracting abundance all my life without realizing it. Abundance does not only mean money or material items, but it also means situations, opportunities and other kind of feelings. I don’t believe that I was born with it, but I believe that the feeling has been in me since I started meditating from a pretty young age.

Abundance is what we are truly are. We don’t seek to change circumstances. We just have to change our perceptions.

Our lives is controlled by our perception and attitudes towards them.

When we change the way we look at things, the things we look at change.

February 25, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Consciousness, Creativity, Mindset | | No Comments Yet

Gratitude Challenge Summary

It has been real great that I had this sudden idea to just be grateful for an entire month.

It’s funny how I find myself more positive and able to find for better things in every moment just through learning how to be grateful consistently. I believe it is a good practice to learn to find for positives in things and in every single moment.

I find it much easier to just go through moments where I feel things are lacking and all. I am less fearful of situations and more in the moment of things. Just appreciating. I would certainly make it a more consistent practice.

Things that I found out in this period:

  1. Being grateful in the early morning helps you add extra quality to your entire day.
  2. It’s better to wake up early to do it. I love the 4am.
  3. Find for every tiny detail to be grateful.
  4. Be in the moment.
  5. I felt a sense that there were more life in my days.

Try it.

February 24, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Gratitude Ramblings | | No Comments Yet

Gratitude Day 30: 23 Feb 2010

  1. I am able to continue this habit for a 30th day.
  2. I have a good morning to thank for.
  3. Being able to disregard certain things at times.
  4. Realizing that every moment is a moment for growth.
  5. Really understanding that the things that you practice and read about helps in moments that you least expect it.
  6. In this moment, I could choose peace.
  7. The morning breeze.
  8. The stillness of the morning.
  9. Enjoying my morning coffee.
  10. Being able to enjoy my morning meditation.
  11. I have some time for myself.
  12. I realize the importance of following my heart.
  13. I am able to start afresh.
  14. I have the clarity of mind to just type this.
  15. Detachment to anything is really true wealth.
  16. I have a phone.
  17. I have a comfortable room.
  18. I have a family.
  19. I have clothes.
  20. I have a laptop.
  21. I have a laptop bag.
  22. I have a pair of futsal shoes.
  23. I have enough money to spend.
  24. I have nice floors.
  25. I choose to look and find for things to be grateful.
  26. I rather be myself.
  27. I have books.
  28. I just sit down and be still.
  29. I am not looking for anything.
  30. I just love being still.

February 23, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Gratitude Ramblings | | No Comments Yet

Gratitude Day 29: 22 Feb 2010

  1. I wake up early today.
  2. I am able to just enjoy the quietness of a 3am morning.
  3. I am able to just take time to find for mental clarity.
  4. I get to enjoy my Rich Nescafe Three-In -One.
  5. Listening to Michael Buble at 3am in the morning is actually damn cool.
  6. Not to forget just smelling my coffee.
  7. Having so much time later to just meditate.
  8. I think I might even go for a run. I have legs.
  9. Being able to enjoy nature at it’s best although I live in the city.
  10. Having a neat table.
  11. Reading a good article about random act of kindness.
  12. Just playing around with my phone.
  13. The many apps that they have on iPhone.
  14. Enjoying the blowing of the aircond in the early morning.
  15. Buying a great CD yesterday.
  16. Being more awareness of the things that drive me.
  17. Living truly in the moment.
  18. Just living day by day.
  19. Having proper stationaries.
  20. I have great things and ideas.
  21. I listen to a nice chant of the Heart Sutra.
  22. Having some money to spend.
  23. Having the deep knowing that the more money I spend, the more money comes in.
  24. I am able to just be still and quiet.
  25. I have books to read.
  26. I feel like I could envision myself doing things which I just truly desire.
  27. Being able to follow my heart, regardless where it brings me to.
  28. I have a nice meditation cushion.
  29. Just absorbing myself into doing something.
  30. I have today to thank for.

February 22, 2010 Posted by Victor Lee | Gratitude Ramblings | | No Comments Yet